Free Flow

Drive me crazy with your ways

your touch, your kiss, your rain cools my internal blaze

Im amazed

your smile, a thousand suns brightening up my days

your eyes, into them I gaze

your hair, whether it's low, or locks, or braids

your style is wild

you keep it fly with b-boy style

your words, profound

I enjoy the sound of verbs, nouns, and pronouns

as they leave your lips, i flip

you love my hips

top to bottom all the way to my finger tips

Not only concerned about MTV, money and fly whips

you make me feel free

I swifty merge into the colors of the sea

you see the blue in me

and cast it out with your positivity

your strength and creativity

your ability to see the truth in me

your personality

you're everything to me

Drive me Crazy with Your Ways

I'm a Lover in a Lost World

I’m a lover in a lost world,

I used to be, I used to be his girl,

I’m looking for a new way,

maybe I’ll find it another day, someday,

when my mind is clear,

when I can let go of my fear,

when I can let go of my pain,

when I can get rid of the shame,

I think about the time that’s past,

the years still feel like yesterday,

your touch still feels like ecstasy,

even just a handshake,

your mind, and mine, are intertwined,

so much of you and I the same,

but your wrong doing was too much for me to take,

I’m still looking for a sign,

but I honestly feel like it’s too late,

The hole in my soul,

like a open wound,

like a endless well,

it can’t be fixed,

it can’t be mended,

I can forgive, but I won’t forget,

I remember it all too well,

The pain, the hurt, out-weighs the love,

though you’re all I’m thinking of,

I’m a lover in a lost world,

I used to be, used to be his girl.........................

Almost Doesn't Count

A heart of such,

that's filled with love,

unwillingly heart-broken.

A heart of such,

that's filled with pain,

confused and unknowing.

once in love,

always in love,

with him who she loved first.

A chance to have love mutually,

but his love has dispersed.

She stupidly chose the road,

of deception, passion, and pain.

sacrificed too much of her life,

and waited for him in vain.

But now he's seemed,

to kill her dreams,

that somehow almost came true.

Wake up she said,

girl use your head,

you can't win, you never do...

A True Confession

In a moment in time when there is no right,

I'm my best when I'm at my worst.

Asking why, but what is not to understand one's understanding?

I'm blown away by my own discrestion and weaknesses.

Did you do this to me? or did I do this to myself?

A calculated notion, a performed equation, a practice completed in solitude.

A past plight of akward pre-perfection that is no longer in sight.

So what!

Am I so changed that I can't take flight?

Bring into existence a new existence?

do I need assistance?

It's my own ocean that I continue to drown in. But it's a non-forced deception.

I want to get lifted. I just can't seem to figure out the encryption!

an uncharted position...

Turned on by Distruction

Turned on by destruction, chaos, combustion,

Death, please breathe your soft breath over me.

Sex me oh destruction, lifestyle and corruption,

If not lost, where would I be?

Thrill me, caress me, kiss me, undress me, 

so happy I could die.

Kill me, test me, you demon, you bless me,

so close to hell and heaven, barely alive.

Drown the pain away, bag-bottle-body,

everything's my pill.

Pain won't go away, so I sit beside me,

wondering if it ever will.

Sexy suicide, russian roulette-yet,

don't know which one will be my last.

Laughing not to cry, smile, long sighs,

as I fill my next glass.

Yes sweet destruction, danger, obstruction,

so tempting with your ways.

Slave to destruction, fiending, lusting....

until the END of my days?